These are the nights I don’t tell you about. These are the nights that I think maybe, for real, we’re not going to make it. That maybe there was a reason we didn’t get pregnant, and that reason was my total unfitness to be a mother. These are the nights when I know for sure… Continue reading These Nights
Category: Adoption
The Unexpected Grace of Pumpkins
My husband Paul and I took a body blow at the end of one September. We’d had a baby boy in adoptive placement in our home for two months, thinking he would be ours forever, and then one day we knew he wouldn’t. We surrendered him back to the arms of the young woman who… Continue reading The Unexpected Grace of Pumpkins
It’s Not Just You
I just sent this text to a friend. It helps to know we're not the only ones. This is the greatest gift we can give one another, the gift of it's not just you. I feel like I say this all the time (feel free to roll your eyes at me), but I really only write about… Continue reading It’s Not Just You
Seven
Seven years ago, in the evening, I was leaving a board meeting for a chorus I was singing with, and my cell phone rang. It was our caseworker. "Baby was born," she said. She'd called the house a couple of times, finally rousing Paul from sleep for a confused conversation. He'd managed to wake up… Continue reading Seven
Backpack Treasures
Yesterday and today, all the stuff from school came home in backpacks. Besides random Pokemon cards (the boys were thrilled), I found such delightful things. You guys. From the beginning of the year until sometime in February, Levi apparently kept a journal at school. I cannot even handle it. 12/6/16 my least favrit seasn is… Continue reading Backpack Treasures